Born into dysfunction
I entered blind
To Your will and to Your perfect love.
Oh Lord, I didn’t know You.
I didn’t know how to search for You
Or what to look for.
I didn’t know who to ask,
Nor even the right questions
To learn about You.
Crippled by my ignorance
Vulnerable in my loneliness,
I leaned on frail and fragile crutches.
They didn’t save me from stumbling.
They didn’t protect me from falling,
Over and over again.
Into this hopeless wasteland,
You sent Your Son
And through Him, Your Holy Spirit.
He comforted me and called me to You.
Now, each time I misunderstand,
Each time I mis-step
Or seek direction from the sin-filled sources,
As I continue to do in my unknowingness,
You brake my fall.
You shield me.
You teach me what to search for,
How to seek,
How to recognize Your precious face.
You teach me how to listen,
How to hear Your Holy Word,
Even in the the chaos and cacophony of our world.
Good and gracious Lord
There are not words sufficient to express my gratitude.
All I have to offer You
Are the consequences of Your gifts to me —
As I realize again and again
All I have is Yours.
All that I am
Is because of You and Your grace.
How could I possibly lift my voice
Or my mind
Or my heart in anger or frustration,
Oh my God,
Knowing, as You have allowed me to do,
That all that I am