Walking With My Brother

In 2013 when I started this web blog, it was a passionate response to personal revelation of our Lord’s work in my life.

This writing. Its place here online. Its purpose. I mostly didn’t understand its value beyond its value to me. It has seemed at times self-indulgent, self-centered and I’ve walked away for long stretches from sharing here. Here’s what I thought about it back then…unintentionally, it turned into a sort of poem:

Yet, even in those times when I walked away from posting online, it seemed as if He still compelled me to write; literally to stop what I was doing and I take the time to capture a message for me, reduce it to words.

For a while I thought of it as merely an excellent exercise for my own interior understanding and development — a way to organize my thoughts. And, if that had been all there was, the sum total and reward of my effort, well good enough.

But, it wasn’t enough for Him:

Go further. Dig deeper.
Be here with Me.
Let Me teach you. Bless you.
Be here with Me.
Hear My voice. Capture My words.
Let Me guide your hand.
Be here with Me.
Then, share what we’ve written.
Let me worry about the rest.

My own words can often be so much drivel. Still, frequently enough the Holy Spirit seems to take hold and give me words so consoling. When I read them later, read of those special times when I felt His presence, I remember, and I can savor again the feelings of love and longing, awe and inspiration.

As I began to post again in 2019, I wanted Our Lord, the Holy Spirit, Our Father in Heaven, to be my only audience. These were my thoughts back then about how to reboot this effort. My conversations with Him (prayers by any other measure) helped me focus, stay focused, on my intentions, and His direction. It often seems necessary — this focus on Him and His Will, which insists that I look up for His guidance, rather then out for the world’s approval. I’ll write more about this at some point.

About two years ago, this focus began shifting again and beginning in Advent 2023, I began sharing meditations on each of the Mysteries of the Holy Rosary. When I began back in 2020 praying a daily Rosary, I looked to various sources for meditations or reflections on each of the mysteries. What I found didn’t satisfy. I wanted reflections — something — that helped me understand their meaning — for me, anyway — the literal events of the various bible passages, of course, but more important, the deeper, often more hidden guidance and lessons of those passages. I began making my own notes on each mystery, as I prayed over the ensuing years. And before I knew it, they began to take shape into something worth sharing. It wasn’t my initial intention, but in retrospect, it may have been His. I posted all of them in a Rosary Meditations Library on this site where they could be found more easily.

Now with Advent, 2025 approaching, I’m beginning yet another new phase. The Meditations have been printed into a lovely little book called The Way of the Rosary, From “Yes,” to the Great Feast. Here is a picture of its cover.

You can read more about the details of the last 18 months here. It’s been a journey. For any of you writers out there, you may appreciate the ways the Holy Spirit walked with me through all the various frustrations and struggles of publishing. He’s been here with me throughout. He even helped baby-step me through the process required to record the meditations, incorporating them into audio files for each set of Rosary mysteries. They’ll be available soon, for those wishing to pray the Rosary along with me each day.

The Holy Spirit seems to have a lot planned for me in all of this, but I don’t always understand the “how” or “when” or even the “what” of it all. So, in many ways you’ll get to know almost as soon as I do, how this journey will evolve. The “why,” though, is as it has always been: For the glory of God.

Please say a prayer for me as I begin again and again (and again), would you? And a prayer that these words will find the eyes and ears of those whom Our Lord chooses. I pray, as always, that what I share here blesses and encourages each of you along your way.